"There is time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time to war and a time for peace."
It seems the older I get, the faster time flies. I don't like it...I actually despise it! My babies are growing up way too fast, I'm growing older with each passing year, and there never seems to be enough time to keep everything that is important to me, a priority.
Very recently, I was in a place where I felt really indifferent. It seemed no matter how hard I tried to do the right thing, it was never enough. I've always known how blessed I was to have my children and family who loved and cared for me. But, there was just something "off". At that very precise moment that I needed some good news, a reprieve from life, or a breath of fresh air...I found and connected with my older brother. I won't get into any details...it's still all so new. I feel like I want to hold this close and protect this special time. Just when I thought, I may begin to unravel and break down, God sent us Shawn. Words can not even begin to describe how much happiness this has brought to myself, my brother Andy and the rest of our family. It's all been so surreal and amazing!
There is a time and a season for everything! I just sit back, with tears streaming down my face, at how God's timing in all of this, for all of us involved, is nothing short of a miracle.
I may never understand the "whys" of this life and I am sure I'll not like some of them. I may feel as though God has forsaken me at times, but His timing is always right on! In my weakness, He is my strength.
As our family starts this incredible journey, I am at peace in knowing that "....there is a time to weep and a time to laugh; there is a time to mourn and a time to dance; there is a time to search and a time to give up; a time to be silent and a time to speak..."